I reject your reality and substitute my own

So about a week after I started feeling better from the meningitis, I woke up in the middle of the night with uncontrollable tears coming out of my left eye and was feeling like there was something in it. I got a wet rag and put it on my eye and went back to sleep. I woke up with the same issues only I was having serious light sensitivity. I thought maybe I scratched it so I just dealt with it and went on with my day.

The next morning I woke up and it was swollen almost closed and was horribly painful. I got into the eye doc and learned I had a corneal ulceration, one of the worst he has seen. He gave me an ointment cocktail of antibiotic and steroid and sent me home.

Because of the light sensitivity, I have been in the dark for almost a week. I broke down and went to bumbershoot, but other than that, all my shades have been drawn and I haven't been outside the house during daylight hours except to go to daily appts with my doc.

I am so sick of being sick. However, I have a new appreciation for my health and I will definitely work on taking care of myself more. Both diseases have been because of a weakened immune so I need to make sure I am getting sleep and eating much healthier. Of course I am saying this at almost midnight and I'm on my blackberry writing a blog.

So on that note, I'm going to bed. All of us mommies out there need to take care of ourselves!! It's not just us that suffer when we don't!!